This will be a long post. Don't even know how to start...

So I went to see my cousin as you all know.

There are so many side what you can take of this covid  madness.

All of them calls each others brain washed sheeps that is for sure.

First,there is my way of thinking. 

Yes, there is a virus. Know it from first hand, hubby got it and he was very poorly. I, highly possible, had it too with only the symptoms of a cold. Boys, Martin and Marcell, (Martin was living with us at that time) nothing. Even tho hubby was isolated in the bedroom, only me went in but we all were locked in a house with close contact, especially with Marci there's no personal space, yet we were all good. Thomas has type 1 diabetes, I looked up on that obviously even if someone has it  with diabetes, not necessary will get poorly. Strong immune system and genetics. Heard stories of healthy people dying around the same age (44) I don't agree on that. If you are healthy no way this could kill you. There must be something underlying conditions what this virus triggered and because it was unknown it lead to a fatality. I do not accept the theory of healthy people dying of it. Obviously I'm not a doctor, just a common sense. Oh and I don't read or listen news very often.

One thing I highly recommend... think positive, even when you know shit hit the fan. And smile. With that shit on your face. Negative people always have things worse.

So, I broke two rules today. First, I went to pick up Martin,who doesn't live with us. Second, I went to see my cousin and her partner, they are not in our bubble either. BUT they are all healthy, yep I know you still can have it, no evidence of that, and basically at this day possibly EVERYONE has it now or had it.

So sod it, if they are fine and so are we I am going to see my closest family and friends. Because we are rely on that social interaction what makes us healthy in every way. Do not tell me,you are fine with zoom, face time and text messages etc. I'm a happy person generally but I've got fucked in the head too.

There are so many theories,views how it started and why, what's the plan.

We will never find it out. We are the puppets in the show. What show? Fuck knows. Wealthy people possibly.

There is my cousin side, That shit is scary.

That side she's on, they call them conspiracy theorists. They call the rest of us brain washed sheeps. Listening her, I don't think we are the only ones. She would be happily go out to protest her way of thinking with a gun and kill people who might try to stop her. Because, as they see, wealthy people will take over the world, they will control us in every possible way. Well, they already do that aren't they?They will tell us how to dress, how to behave, how to live and et cetera. We will have nothing but we will be happy. And only 10 % of the world population will survive. 

So if we add everything up, people killed by the virus and will be killed by of these protest yep there is a chance.

Now, this shit was man made, accidentally or intentionally released... we will never find it out.

One thing is sure, I told her too:

Whatever is the reason of this shit show, I won't live my life in fear, isolated,depressed. I need to go to work to make my living,(cleaning some tough shit at Asda) to look after my family in the best possible way. For that, we need to break some rules. Yet all of our way are very careful and sensitive to keep everyone safe for everyone  we are or might be in close contact. No one I've seen, had or has covid because of me or any of my family member. I won't take part in any activities at any side. Call me brain washed, coward or irresponsible don't care.  

All I want to keep my family and friends healthy and safe and yes,there is a way to do it safely. Just use your common sense and be fucking happy. Because we don't have any other chance so you can decide how you are going to pull it through.

Love you all.